Monthly Archives: November 2016

meow

I must not have expectations and let go of things, breathe in breathe out. Let go of my need of finding a dance job. Let go of my wish of being treated in a certain way by him. Let go … Continue reading

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shocking

Buying shoes is quite difficult for me, I’m so picky: they have to be comfortable and look good and be soft and wide enough and be healthy for my foot and be cheap and be of good quality. Finding sneakers … Continue reading

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diving

I left him once again to come back to Vienna to some nice things to do, but I still feel unsettled. I’m often around when he works but when I work, I never have anybody around. It makes me sad. … Continue reading

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scheinwerfer

I want so much to find a good dance job that I enjoy, one like the things that I was doing back then in school. It’s unfair and difficult: those who already work with someone become better and get a … Continue reading

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star

I’m arriving for his premiere after a day of travelling and after not having seen him for a while, and he tells me that it’s better if we see each other only after his show. Basically he’s leaving me wandering … Continue reading

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rhabarber

I don’t like that, when I drink coffee slowly, it doesn’t stay warm in the mug. I wonder if I will always keep on being fascinated by the North or if it will become normal routine and then I will … Continue reading

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this very moment

So may days of golden patience, of just being around him while he works; and all this only in order to get some pieces of him for myself. Trying to absorb all what’s possible of his essence; just being there, … Continue reading

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top rage

My travel was so long. Kiev was covered in snow and full of army. My pumpkin soup was oily and cheap. My flight was delayed over an hour. The supermoon looked beautiful seen from the plane. The hostess was so … Continue reading

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the sky is so white! i love it

I happen to mention him a lot and often, so now everybody knows him and asks about him. Yes, it’s impossible to talk about my life without talking about him. About us two. Our lives are intertwined. It’s as if … Continue reading

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I surprised him for his birthday. It was difficult, because I have the feeling that it’s impossible to hide anything from him, he always knows. But it was also extremely exciting. I was so tensed in the moments right before … Continue reading

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